Post by kindel on Oct 30, 2010 19:40:35 GMT -5
Chapter 1
My Beginning
I was a happy nine year old with brown hair and bright green eyes.I was a little skinny and was not shy at all. I would jump up to say hello to anyone who walked by.I had one parent,my mother,and a lost dad as she said.I had a brother named Nathan who was four years older than I.Of course, I had a bff.Her name was Mary Heartfield.I was always with her.We loved to go on "Adventures".One of the adventures we had was in her grandma's attic.Her grandma had said we could play in her attic if we wanted.I think Mary had asked but I couldn't be sure.We walked up the ladder and we saw a wonderful place.We had a dull light shining on us from high above our heads and saw so many beautiful things.We saw some paintings which had dulled a little from age and jewelry that sparkled brightly.Mary and me were curios girls though we stayed out of trouble, but I saw the most adorable little box.It had a little green lace going around it and white frill shaping into a bow.It had a little orange jewel at the top that hooked around a little metal circle that was keeping it closed.As soon as I saw Mary playing and brushing the hair of a little old Barbie doll I went straight to the box.I stared at it and slowly opened it.Inside were two heart shaped yellow rocks.Drilled into the top was a little hole that held a little string that wound into a necklace. I called Mary quietly and showed them to her.She squealed with delight."Karen those are adorable!Lets show what we found to Grandma!"and down the stairs she ran with me trailing behind her.She had the hearts in her hand and was wearing a big grin."Grandma look what we found!!Aren't they soooo cute?"she yelled at her."Yes they are aren't they.My best friend and me used to where them everywhere.Why don't you and Karen keep them now?"she said with a chuckle at the way we danced around them.Mary's mouth turned into an even bigger smile."Really?Yay!! Here Karen you can wear this one."she said."Okay.Thanks Mrs.Travis"I laughed."No prob, Hun," she grinned.I smiled back and wondered how things could get better.From that point on things only got worse and worse.
A few days later early in January while I was enjoying some new-fallen snow someone came and tapped on my shoulder.Thinking it was Mary I jumped around and yelled "Ha! I caught you!" but it wasn't her.It was my mother.Her eyes were red and puffy from crying.My smile vanished and I wanted to know what was wrong.My mother had curly brown hair and chocolate colored eyes that were almost always happy.She was fit and lean and fit in all her clothes from college and said that was good for a 37 year old lawyer.She looked into my eyes and whispered "Nathen is dead.He was killed in a car crash on his way to Jason's."and she broke down.I was in shock.My brother Nathen,no more.I couldn't understand.My only brother ,who I loved, was now never coming back.A single tear slid down my cold cheek.
Chapter 2
School
In school things were not good.I was not the same happy girl.I didn't play around anymore.During lunch I would just sit and watch my food.My grades were B's and mom still wasn't happy.She was busy all the time.She said she did it to keep her mind off things.I didn't care.Me and Mary said we were still best friends but everyone could tell we were growing apart.One day Mary called me.She said she had lost our friend necklace.She said as gently as she could that I wasn't her best friend any longer.Her new BF was Rebecca.Rebecca was the snottiest girl in school.To me that is.She was very pretty and had alot of friends/followers.She was mean to me all the time.I still don't know why she bullied me.One dreadful day I was sitting at a lunch table all alone looking at my mashed potatoes when Rebecca came over from her bulging table and said to me, "Karen stop sulking about the past you creep.and by the way I hate that shirt your wearing."The shirt I was wearing had been from Nathen for Christmas.My face fell a little more than it already was.She had seen the change in my expression and saw that it hurt me.She smirked in my direction.That was it.I was done with her.My face turned into a glare.I growled a low deep growl and jumped on her.She screamed as I pulled her hair and scratched her arms.She tried to fight back and I laughed at the attempt.The lunch lady heard us and must have called the principle and sucerity.Great.A large man with a name tag that said "Bill" grabbed me,still kicking.Another one with a name tag that said "Charlie" helped Rebecca off the floor."YOU MANIAC!!!"she yelled at me.Then I took in her appearance.Her hair was a mess and her fancy shirt was a little torn.Her left arm was bleeding a little and her leg was scratched good.Now I felt a little bit bad.The security guy Bill brought me to the office where I sat and thought about what I had done until my mom got there.She sent me to a councilor.
The councilor's office was so boring."Karen, what makes you angry?" "Nothing." "Karen sweetie I just want to help you.Do you miss Nathen?Is that it?" "Grrrr" "....I'm very sorry about what happened.I really am.I want to help you feel better.So what makes you happy?" "Mary." ...... "Mary?Who's that?Your mother?" silence."Karen what's wrong?Um I'll go get your mom.Wait here okay?" silence. I went to that dull office for 3 months twice a week.
My mom took me out of school and said she would home school me for awhile.That sounded nice and boring.My mom said she would still have to work full time and said she trusted me to do all the school she gave me for the day.Then she sent me to a school for children with um,problems I think.
On my first day at the school I sat at the front of the class.After math and lunch a strange girl walked up to me.She walked very funny."Hi, you must be the new girl.Karen isn't it?"she said happily."Um,yeah,sure."I replied.She giggled."My name is Siera.I'm here because ,well ,both of my legs had to be amputated because I got Gangrene in both of them from a 'dramatic' carcrash." 'giggles' "These legs work fine though.Why are you here?"she asked."I don't know."I said dully.She smiled."That's fine.Do you like the school so far?"she urged."Um,sure." "Oh,okay.How old are you?". I hadn't thought about it."I think I'm ten or eleven .That's like 4th,5th grade right?"I said."Yep.Your my age!"she said with a smile.Me and her became friends.She didn't mind my quiet behavior at all.That was nice.She talked so much that I didn't need to make a sound.I liked her.
Chapter 3
Left Alone
My mom got busier.Sometimes she forgot to pick me up from school.One time I stayed on a bench outside my school for five long hours.I was so hungry.Siera and her mom drove by and saw me sitting there alone checking done homework."Karen, is that you?"Siera's voice asked. My stomach growled."Yeah."I said tiredly."What are you doing here so late?"she asked concerned."My mom is late again,"I said."Mom,can we give Karen a ride home?"I heard her ask."Um I don't know where she lives."her mom said."You can tell us right Karen?"Siera asked me in the dark."I think so."I said not sure."Well okay.Come on in Karen."Siera's mom said nicely.She drove up in front of me and opened to door.I told her where to go and she dropped me off out side of my little gray house."Karen whenever you need a ride you can just ask okay?"her mom said."Kay thanks."I said quietly.I walked up to the door.I pulled my emergency house key out of my backpack.I opened the door to see my mother in front of our computer screen."Aw,man Karen I'm so sorry hunny.I was just so busy,"she said running up to me and giving me a hug. When she was done embracing me I just said"Ok," and headed for the kitchen to stuff myself.
When my mom heard about what Sierra's mom did,she called her and wanted to meet.I got to hang out with Sierra while my mom and her mom talked.After they were done my mom said if she was late I could go to Sierra's after school.I was happy when she started making snacks for when I went over there. Sierra's mother was very nice to me.
I started to like drawing.The imagination it took to draw kept my mind occupied.Mom said we were moving to a house nearby in a culdesac.I didn't care.It took us two weeks to move out,and move in.The new house was little.That wasn't bad though.I liked my bed-room.It was light grey and had a nice little closet.I laid down on my newly moved bed.It felt great.I decided to explore the culdesack.Well, maybe tomorrow.Or the next day.Ha ha just kidding.I'd check it out in awhile.
Chapter 4
Brand New Friend
I walked into my front yard.I saw houses with grey,black, and red walls.I looked in front of me and saw a pretty little tree on our lawn.I walked up to it and saw it was climb-able.I grabbed onto the branch up above me and swung my body onto one next to it.As soon as I got up,I climbed to the top.I found a comfy , sturdy branch that had a smaller one sticking out and sat on it. I looked out to see what there was. I saw some forest over the houses and then just valley. Many of the houses looked empty. I looked onto the streets and saw some one playing basket ball. I climbed down the tree slowly.
I wasn't very out going so I didn't know how to introduce myself.I slowly walked twords it.It was a boy.I took a nice close look at him.He had light blond hair and chocolate brown eyes.He looked like he was nine or ten.I stopped.He looked at me and smiled a breath taking smile.I smiled back at him."Hello there,"he said"Who are you?"."Um,oh K-Karen,"I stuttered."I live up in that house.Do you live here?"I asked."No,I live right there."he said pointing to the house next to mine."Oh! Are you my neighbor?"I asked surprised."I sure am!"he said throwing another smile at me.I walked a little closer to him."Can I watch?"I asked.He smiled at me"Sure!Want to talk to?"he asked.I giggled."Okay."We talked about where we'd been and any things we had done that were exciting.I liked him."Oh sorry,I haven't said my name.It's Daniel,"he said smiling all the time"Daniel Prairie."I smiled back.I thought "We will be friends."That made me smile.I think this is what they call a crush.We talked for a long long time.His face got so much prettier as I found his personality was as good as his looks.The next day after school, mom was late as usual.Sierra asked as usual if I would go to her house. This time I said I would try to walk home.Her face went from happiness to shock."Are you sure Karen?You've never done it before!"she said worried."Yeah,Sierra.I'm going to be fine okay?"I said convincingly."Okay Karen.Just be careful," she said obviously convinced.Then she got in her moms car and drove away.I started my walk home. It seemed like a normal day to walk Home.I turned were I needed to and may have taken a detour.I finally got to my little couldesac and saw Daniel playing basketball.He waved my way and smiled.I smiled back and walked up to him.
Mom came home late that night.She came up with wide eyes looking at me."You walked home today?"she asked seeming almost mad."Yes I did.When I got home I just talked to Daniel for awhile,"I said."Karen,I didn't know you were going to.You scared me!Next time at least tell me so I can have a say!"she nearly yelled.I was annoyed now."You didn't tell me I couldn't"I snapped back."Karen don't you talk to me that way!"she yelled."Karen don't you talk to me that way,"I said in a whiny voice."Karen go to your room!"she said."Sure!Why don't we do that!"I yelled at her.Then I stomped up to the room and slammed the door with all my might and kicked my wall with my boots on.It left a brown smudge.I laughed.I grabbed my pillow and screamed into it.I had hated myself.I threw a tantrum.Then I slowly fell asleep.
The next morning,I got up at four thirty to see my mom.I said I was sorry for being a brat.She said it was fine and that she had to get going.Then I went outside to sit on the porch.It was Saturday.I looked out onto the street.There was no one around and the fog hadn't risen all the way yet.A cool breeze made me shiver .I was in a shirt that was way to big for me and some shorts.I ran my fingers through my tangled,sticking up, hair.I grabbed the blanket my mom kept on a little table for being outside.I wrapped it around me.I sat and planned to get up in an hour or so.I sat and watched the street and slowly fell asleep....
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I woke up to see sunlight blasting my face.I was all sweaty and clammy.I waited until my eyes had udjusted until I got up and looked around.The fog was long gone.It wasn't quiet anymore.I looked out into the street.I saw Daniel playing basketball.He saw me awake and waved.I smiled and waved back.I saw cars going across the street down past our culdesac.It was 10:47am.I probably looked like a monster.I got up and headed inside.
Chapter 5
Scared New Land
I cleaned up and walked back out.I smiled and waved at Daniel.He looked twords me,stopping his basketball playing.He waved at me back.He called smiling,"Hey Karen!Hey you can come over if you want!"I smiled and walked over.I sat down on the curb.I didn't know what to say as usual."Hey Daniel,"I said happily.He smiled and started playing basketball again."Hey Karen,just wondering,do you,I don't know,umm,l-like me?"He said, starting to blush.I looked at him confused and thrown off guard."I-I think I do,"I said sheepishly and starting to grin.He smiled and set down his ball on the back of the basketball hoop.He came and sat by me.I looked into his eyes and smiled a little.I was embarrassed.I looked up into the sky to get away from his gaze.He giggled."I like you too,"he said happily.
I thought of him as my nicely that day.The next day ,my mom stayed home.We didn't talk.I just stayed in my room.I sat and thought about alot of things.I thought about Daniel, Sierra ,everything!I didn't feel pretty and wondered why Daniel would like me.I walked over to my bathroom, and looked into the mirror.I was surprised but happy with what I saw.My eyes seemed bright, and my hair hadn't lost its original shine.I was slim ,but not too slim and I think I was pretty pretty."No wonder he likes me,"I giggled.
I started feeling normal around Daniel.I mean like I belonged.It felt good.On Monday I asked my mom if I could walk home.She paused but eventually said yes.I walked home from then on.I walked to the school bus and sat by Siera."Erm,hello."I said.She smiled."Hey Karen."I thought about school today.When I got to school and was done with all my classes,I told Siera about how I could walk home.She said"Oookay if you say so , but remember you can come over whenever you want,"she said after I explained.Then I told her about Daniel.She got excited and we started talking boys.Looking back That was fun.A few days past and things were the same.Days later I was twelve.Hoorah.I wasn't that happy.Things were the same as always except that people kept saying "Happy Birthday!".Yeah yeah.My mom sat down with me and had a talk.I was going to a normal middle school.
I talked to Siera.She said she would miss me alot but hoped I would have fun.She said it would be nice if she could go,too.We talked for awhile about all kinds of stuff like how she got a new turtle,or she got braces and it didn't hurt as much as she was expecting.Then we had to go to class.
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On my first day some ugly kid knocked me down.I almost blew up but remembered my mom and my talk. I needed to control my anger better.Bah.I gave her a fierce look and kept walking.She sneered at me and smiled.I just ignored her and kept walking. I had already gone to the office checked in blah blah blah....I found my locker.Stuck my little bit of stuff in and went to my first class.It was boring.Everyone had seemed to have already formed groups. Emo ,girly ,boyish-ish ,nerds ,and many more.I didn't fit in any.I was just a.....I don't know, punk maybe. I went walking down the isle to go to lunch.I sat at an empty table and ate a bagel.I must've seemed real happy because I got a few ugly faces.I was in a black T and some old jeans.What was so bad about that? After lunch, some guy came up to me."Hey, my names Mark.Just wanted to introduce myself 'cause no one seems to want to," he said happily. I managed a smile and said "Um,hi.My name's Karen.""Cool.I have to go to class, so see you around," he said still happy."Cool,"I answered.
I found out Daniel went to my school. what were the odds? I hopped around my empty room happily.I thought about him all that day.My first day of school wasn't to bad.I met anoyher person named Michelle.She seemed ordinary.She was a gossiper. I'd only known her for an hour and she was allready going on and on about this girl and that girl.I kinda tuned out after awhile.I just nodded and said stuff like "oh cool"or ''yeah uh huh,''and just kept goin about.Luckily my next class came.
I found out I hated grammer class.I mean why is there no apostrephe in its if it is a possesive? I will never know. Anyway after class I walked home.I went over to talk to Daniel."Hey Daniel,"I said almost cheerful. He half smiled and looked over at me."Hey Karen,"he said plainly.I went inside and took a nap.
When my mom got home I was eating a piece of bread and jelly.
Chapter 6
The Last Stand
I started walking home after another um, (nice?) day at school. I had tripped a girl but had made it look enough like a accident to get away with it. Ha! You should have seen that girl's face! I don't like that girl. Wait a second, thats the girl that knocked me down! WOO! Well, I was doing okay. Coping. I had seen daniel today, but got no warm hug. I had seen siera today but got no warm comforting smile. It was 2 days until my 13 birthday and i was in 7th grade. I kinda wanted to just... i dont know, escape my life.
I can't even think about it. My poor heart is broken into so many sharp edges. Why? I will um, say later the cause of my distress. my poor Daniel...
Why do these things happen. daniel kissed me. I couldnt believe it. no one had ever done that. no one. Not even my own dear mother. i was just walking out of school when he ran in and pecked my cheek. his warm lips softly touching my skin was as close as ive been to heaven in a long time. I turned my head in time for our lips to meet real fast and we bothed pulled back and i ran off into the darkness. What bliss. What was wrong you ask? well, i will tell you. I got home and waved at daniel. He just looked at me sadly, almost angry in a way. I walked to him, wondering what was wrong. "Daniel? Are you okay?" i asked touching his arm gently. just the slightest touch made me feel special, warm and jittery inside. To my surprise, he jerked away quickly. I pulled my arm back, thinking maybe that i had passed my limits with that slight contact. I apolagized so i wouldnt offend him. i couldnt lose him. "Im sorry! i... didnt mean to touch you. wait, i did, but not to make you mad, i mean,... wait im so sorry," i said chattering on. Its hard to believe that 4 words can kill someone inside. "I dont like you." he slowly backed away and turned. he ran into his house as i stood there weeping. sobbing.
I was walking home again. what a normal day it had been.
Hi guys. I'm so sorry ive been gone soooo long. I will probably join again soon! love ya!
0kindel0
My Beginning
I was a happy nine year old with brown hair and bright green eyes.I was a little skinny and was not shy at all. I would jump up to say hello to anyone who walked by.I had one parent,my mother,and a lost dad as she said.I had a brother named Nathan who was four years older than I.Of course, I had a bff.Her name was Mary Heartfield.I was always with her.We loved to go on "Adventures".One of the adventures we had was in her grandma's attic.Her grandma had said we could play in her attic if we wanted.I think Mary had asked but I couldn't be sure.We walked up the ladder and we saw a wonderful place.We had a dull light shining on us from high above our heads and saw so many beautiful things.We saw some paintings which had dulled a little from age and jewelry that sparkled brightly.Mary and me were curios girls though we stayed out of trouble, but I saw the most adorable little box.It had a little green lace going around it and white frill shaping into a bow.It had a little orange jewel at the top that hooked around a little metal circle that was keeping it closed.As soon as I saw Mary playing and brushing the hair of a little old Barbie doll I went straight to the box.I stared at it and slowly opened it.Inside were two heart shaped yellow rocks.Drilled into the top was a little hole that held a little string that wound into a necklace. I called Mary quietly and showed them to her.She squealed with delight."Karen those are adorable!Lets show what we found to Grandma!"and down the stairs she ran with me trailing behind her.She had the hearts in her hand and was wearing a big grin."Grandma look what we found!!Aren't they soooo cute?"she yelled at her."Yes they are aren't they.My best friend and me used to where them everywhere.Why don't you and Karen keep them now?"she said with a chuckle at the way we danced around them.Mary's mouth turned into an even bigger smile."Really?Yay!! Here Karen you can wear this one."she said."Okay.Thanks Mrs.Travis"I laughed."No prob, Hun," she grinned.I smiled back and wondered how things could get better.From that point on things only got worse and worse.
A few days later early in January while I was enjoying some new-fallen snow someone came and tapped on my shoulder.Thinking it was Mary I jumped around and yelled "Ha! I caught you!" but it wasn't her.It was my mother.Her eyes were red and puffy from crying.My smile vanished and I wanted to know what was wrong.My mother had curly brown hair and chocolate colored eyes that were almost always happy.She was fit and lean and fit in all her clothes from college and said that was good for a 37 year old lawyer.She looked into my eyes and whispered "Nathen is dead.He was killed in a car crash on his way to Jason's."and she broke down.I was in shock.My brother Nathen,no more.I couldn't understand.My only brother ,who I loved, was now never coming back.A single tear slid down my cold cheek.
Chapter 2
School
In school things were not good.I was not the same happy girl.I didn't play around anymore.During lunch I would just sit and watch my food.My grades were B's and mom still wasn't happy.She was busy all the time.She said she did it to keep her mind off things.I didn't care.Me and Mary said we were still best friends but everyone could tell we were growing apart.One day Mary called me.She said she had lost our friend necklace.She said as gently as she could that I wasn't her best friend any longer.Her new BF was Rebecca.Rebecca was the snottiest girl in school.To me that is.She was very pretty and had alot of friends/followers.She was mean to me all the time.I still don't know why she bullied me.One dreadful day I was sitting at a lunch table all alone looking at my mashed potatoes when Rebecca came over from her bulging table and said to me, "Karen stop sulking about the past you creep.and by the way I hate that shirt your wearing."The shirt I was wearing had been from Nathen for Christmas.My face fell a little more than it already was.She had seen the change in my expression and saw that it hurt me.She smirked in my direction.That was it.I was done with her.My face turned into a glare.I growled a low deep growl and jumped on her.She screamed as I pulled her hair and scratched her arms.She tried to fight back and I laughed at the attempt.The lunch lady heard us and must have called the principle and sucerity.Great.A large man with a name tag that said "Bill" grabbed me,still kicking.Another one with a name tag that said "Charlie" helped Rebecca off the floor."YOU MANIAC!!!"she yelled at me.Then I took in her appearance.Her hair was a mess and her fancy shirt was a little torn.Her left arm was bleeding a little and her leg was scratched good.Now I felt a little bit bad.The security guy Bill brought me to the office where I sat and thought about what I had done until my mom got there.She sent me to a councilor.
The councilor's office was so boring."Karen, what makes you angry?" "Nothing." "Karen sweetie I just want to help you.Do you miss Nathen?Is that it?" "Grrrr" "....I'm very sorry about what happened.I really am.I want to help you feel better.So what makes you happy?" "Mary." ...... "Mary?Who's that?Your mother?" silence."Karen what's wrong?Um I'll go get your mom.Wait here okay?" silence. I went to that dull office for 3 months twice a week.
My mom took me out of school and said she would home school me for awhile.That sounded nice and boring.My mom said she would still have to work full time and said she trusted me to do all the school she gave me for the day.Then she sent me to a school for children with um,problems I think.
On my first day at the school I sat at the front of the class.After math and lunch a strange girl walked up to me.She walked very funny."Hi, you must be the new girl.Karen isn't it?"she said happily."Um,yeah,sure."I replied.She giggled."My name is Siera.I'm here because ,well ,both of my legs had to be amputated because I got Gangrene in both of them from a 'dramatic' carcrash." 'giggles' "These legs work fine though.Why are you here?"she asked."I don't know."I said dully.She smiled."That's fine.Do you like the school so far?"she urged."Um,sure." "Oh,okay.How old are you?". I hadn't thought about it."I think I'm ten or eleven .That's like 4th,5th grade right?"I said."Yep.Your my age!"she said with a smile.Me and her became friends.She didn't mind my quiet behavior at all.That was nice.She talked so much that I didn't need to make a sound.I liked her.
Chapter 3
Left Alone
My mom got busier.Sometimes she forgot to pick me up from school.One time I stayed on a bench outside my school for five long hours.I was so hungry.Siera and her mom drove by and saw me sitting there alone checking done homework."Karen, is that you?"Siera's voice asked. My stomach growled."Yeah."I said tiredly."What are you doing here so late?"she asked concerned."My mom is late again,"I said."Mom,can we give Karen a ride home?"I heard her ask."Um I don't know where she lives."her mom said."You can tell us right Karen?"Siera asked me in the dark."I think so."I said not sure."Well okay.Come on in Karen."Siera's mom said nicely.She drove up in front of me and opened to door.I told her where to go and she dropped me off out side of my little gray house."Karen whenever you need a ride you can just ask okay?"her mom said."Kay thanks."I said quietly.I walked up to the door.I pulled my emergency house key out of my backpack.I opened the door to see my mother in front of our computer screen."Aw,man Karen I'm so sorry hunny.I was just so busy,"she said running up to me and giving me a hug. When she was done embracing me I just said"Ok," and headed for the kitchen to stuff myself.
When my mom heard about what Sierra's mom did,she called her and wanted to meet.I got to hang out with Sierra while my mom and her mom talked.After they were done my mom said if she was late I could go to Sierra's after school.I was happy when she started making snacks for when I went over there. Sierra's mother was very nice to me.
I started to like drawing.The imagination it took to draw kept my mind occupied.Mom said we were moving to a house nearby in a culdesac.I didn't care.It took us two weeks to move out,and move in.The new house was little.That wasn't bad though.I liked my bed-room.It was light grey and had a nice little closet.I laid down on my newly moved bed.It felt great.I decided to explore the culdesack.Well, maybe tomorrow.Or the next day.Ha ha just kidding.I'd check it out in awhile.
Chapter 4
Brand New Friend
I walked into my front yard.I saw houses with grey,black, and red walls.I looked in front of me and saw a pretty little tree on our lawn.I walked up to it and saw it was climb-able.I grabbed onto the branch up above me and swung my body onto one next to it.As soon as I got up,I climbed to the top.I found a comfy , sturdy branch that had a smaller one sticking out and sat on it. I looked out to see what there was. I saw some forest over the houses and then just valley. Many of the houses looked empty. I looked onto the streets and saw some one playing basket ball. I climbed down the tree slowly.
I wasn't very out going so I didn't know how to introduce myself.I slowly walked twords it.It was a boy.I took a nice close look at him.He had light blond hair and chocolate brown eyes.He looked like he was nine or ten.I stopped.He looked at me and smiled a breath taking smile.I smiled back at him."Hello there,"he said"Who are you?"."Um,oh K-Karen,"I stuttered."I live up in that house.Do you live here?"I asked."No,I live right there."he said pointing to the house next to mine."Oh! Are you my neighbor?"I asked surprised."I sure am!"he said throwing another smile at me.I walked a little closer to him."Can I watch?"I asked.He smiled at me"Sure!Want to talk to?"he asked.I giggled."Okay."We talked about where we'd been and any things we had done that were exciting.I liked him."Oh sorry,I haven't said my name.It's Daniel,"he said smiling all the time"Daniel Prairie."I smiled back.I thought "We will be friends."That made me smile.I think this is what they call a crush.We talked for a long long time.His face got so much prettier as I found his personality was as good as his looks.The next day after school, mom was late as usual.Sierra asked as usual if I would go to her house. This time I said I would try to walk home.Her face went from happiness to shock."Are you sure Karen?You've never done it before!"she said worried."Yeah,Sierra.I'm going to be fine okay?"I said convincingly."Okay Karen.Just be careful," she said obviously convinced.Then she got in her moms car and drove away.I started my walk home. It seemed like a normal day to walk Home.I turned were I needed to and may have taken a detour.I finally got to my little couldesac and saw Daniel playing basketball.He waved my way and smiled.I smiled back and walked up to him.
Mom came home late that night.She came up with wide eyes looking at me."You walked home today?"she asked seeming almost mad."Yes I did.When I got home I just talked to Daniel for awhile,"I said."Karen,I didn't know you were going to.You scared me!Next time at least tell me so I can have a say!"she nearly yelled.I was annoyed now."You didn't tell me I couldn't"I snapped back."Karen don't you talk to me that way!"she yelled."Karen don't you talk to me that way,"I said in a whiny voice."Karen go to your room!"she said."Sure!Why don't we do that!"I yelled at her.Then I stomped up to the room and slammed the door with all my might and kicked my wall with my boots on.It left a brown smudge.I laughed.I grabbed my pillow and screamed into it.I had hated myself.I threw a tantrum.Then I slowly fell asleep.
The next morning,I got up at four thirty to see my mom.I said I was sorry for being a brat.She said it was fine and that she had to get going.Then I went outside to sit on the porch.It was Saturday.I looked out onto the street.There was no one around and the fog hadn't risen all the way yet.A cool breeze made me shiver .I was in a shirt that was way to big for me and some shorts.I ran my fingers through my tangled,sticking up, hair.I grabbed the blanket my mom kept on a little table for being outside.I wrapped it around me.I sat and planned to get up in an hour or so.I sat and watched the street and slowly fell asleep....
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I woke up to see sunlight blasting my face.I was all sweaty and clammy.I waited until my eyes had udjusted until I got up and looked around.The fog was long gone.It wasn't quiet anymore.I looked out into the street.I saw Daniel playing basketball.He saw me awake and waved.I smiled and waved back.I saw cars going across the street down past our culdesac.It was 10:47am.I probably looked like a monster.I got up and headed inside.
Chapter 5
Scared New Land
I cleaned up and walked back out.I smiled and waved at Daniel.He looked twords me,stopping his basketball playing.He waved at me back.He called smiling,"Hey Karen!Hey you can come over if you want!"I smiled and walked over.I sat down on the curb.I didn't know what to say as usual."Hey Daniel,"I said happily.He smiled and started playing basketball again."Hey Karen,just wondering,do you,I don't know,umm,l-like me?"He said, starting to blush.I looked at him confused and thrown off guard."I-I think I do,"I said sheepishly and starting to grin.He smiled and set down his ball on the back of the basketball hoop.He came and sat by me.I looked into his eyes and smiled a little.I was embarrassed.I looked up into the sky to get away from his gaze.He giggled."I like you too,"he said happily.
I thought of him as my nicely that day.The next day ,my mom stayed home.We didn't talk.I just stayed in my room.I sat and thought about alot of things.I thought about Daniel, Sierra ,everything!I didn't feel pretty and wondered why Daniel would like me.I walked over to my bathroom, and looked into the mirror.I was surprised but happy with what I saw.My eyes seemed bright, and my hair hadn't lost its original shine.I was slim ,but not too slim and I think I was pretty pretty."No wonder he likes me,"I giggled.
I started feeling normal around Daniel.I mean like I belonged.It felt good.On Monday I asked my mom if I could walk home.She paused but eventually said yes.I walked home from then on.I walked to the school bus and sat by Siera."Erm,hello."I said.She smiled."Hey Karen."I thought about school today.When I got to school and was done with all my classes,I told Siera about how I could walk home.She said"Oookay if you say so , but remember you can come over whenever you want,"she said after I explained.Then I told her about Daniel.She got excited and we started talking boys.Looking back That was fun.A few days past and things were the same.Days later I was twelve.Hoorah.I wasn't that happy.Things were the same as always except that people kept saying "Happy Birthday!".Yeah yeah.My mom sat down with me and had a talk.I was going to a normal middle school.
I talked to Siera.She said she would miss me alot but hoped I would have fun.She said it would be nice if she could go,too.We talked for awhile about all kinds of stuff like how she got a new turtle,or she got braces and it didn't hurt as much as she was expecting.Then we had to go to class.
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On my first day some ugly kid knocked me down.I almost blew up but remembered my mom and my talk. I needed to control my anger better.Bah.I gave her a fierce look and kept walking.She sneered at me and smiled.I just ignored her and kept walking. I had already gone to the office checked in blah blah blah....I found my locker.Stuck my little bit of stuff in and went to my first class.It was boring.Everyone had seemed to have already formed groups. Emo ,girly ,boyish-ish ,nerds ,and many more.I didn't fit in any.I was just a.....I don't know, punk maybe. I went walking down the isle to go to lunch.I sat at an empty table and ate a bagel.I must've seemed real happy because I got a few ugly faces.I was in a black T and some old jeans.What was so bad about that? After lunch, some guy came up to me."Hey, my names Mark.Just wanted to introduce myself 'cause no one seems to want to," he said happily. I managed a smile and said "Um,hi.My name's Karen.""Cool.I have to go to class, so see you around," he said still happy."Cool,"I answered.
I found out Daniel went to my school. what were the odds? I hopped around my empty room happily.I thought about him all that day.My first day of school wasn't to bad.I met anoyher person named Michelle.She seemed ordinary.She was a gossiper. I'd only known her for an hour and she was allready going on and on about this girl and that girl.I kinda tuned out after awhile.I just nodded and said stuff like "oh cool"or ''yeah uh huh,''and just kept goin about.Luckily my next class came.
I found out I hated grammer class.I mean why is there no apostrephe in its if it is a possesive? I will never know. Anyway after class I walked home.I went over to talk to Daniel."Hey Daniel,"I said almost cheerful. He half smiled and looked over at me."Hey Karen,"he said plainly.I went inside and took a nap.
When my mom got home I was eating a piece of bread and jelly.
Chapter 6
The Last Stand
I started walking home after another um, (nice?) day at school. I had tripped a girl but had made it look enough like a accident to get away with it. Ha! You should have seen that girl's face! I don't like that girl. Wait a second, thats the girl that knocked me down! WOO! Well, I was doing okay. Coping. I had seen daniel today, but got no warm hug. I had seen siera today but got no warm comforting smile. It was 2 days until my 13 birthday and i was in 7th grade. I kinda wanted to just... i dont know, escape my life.
I can't even think about it. My poor heart is broken into so many sharp edges. Why? I will um, say later the cause of my distress. my poor Daniel...
Why do these things happen. daniel kissed me. I couldnt believe it. no one had ever done that. no one. Not even my own dear mother. i was just walking out of school when he ran in and pecked my cheek. his warm lips softly touching my skin was as close as ive been to heaven in a long time. I turned my head in time for our lips to meet real fast and we bothed pulled back and i ran off into the darkness. What bliss. What was wrong you ask? well, i will tell you. I got home and waved at daniel. He just looked at me sadly, almost angry in a way. I walked to him, wondering what was wrong. "Daniel? Are you okay?" i asked touching his arm gently. just the slightest touch made me feel special, warm and jittery inside. To my surprise, he jerked away quickly. I pulled my arm back, thinking maybe that i had passed my limits with that slight contact. I apolagized so i wouldnt offend him. i couldnt lose him. "Im sorry! i... didnt mean to touch you. wait, i did, but not to make you mad, i mean,... wait im so sorry," i said chattering on. Its hard to believe that 4 words can kill someone inside. "I dont like you." he slowly backed away and turned. he ran into his house as i stood there weeping. sobbing.
I was walking home again. what a normal day it had been.
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